Out with the OLD

Today is the last day of 2006

Last night my mini ipod accidentally felled. Now it does not play any music. Thus, it is a sign to leave this ipod with the old year.

This ipod meant ALOT to me, it was my last sentimental gift. Good riddance. I needed a big reason like this to discard this ipod.

What a coincidence that its right on the last day of the year.

OUT WITH The OLD

The Universe is facilitating me to start a fresh with no reminders of GW at all.

Watch the Letty Love Show - Forgiveness & Love

New Year is around the corner.... Thus it is time to let go of the pains of 2006 and start anew in 2007

Time to forgive but to be forgiven as well

I host my public access television show on Manhattan Neighborhood Network (MNN) called The Letty Love Show - Does Love Exist? The show is broadcasted every Saturday at noon on channel 56 (Time Warner). I believe every one is an expert in love and every week it revolves around a subject of love. The last saturday show will focus on Forgiveness and Love

Should you call an Ex and forgive him/her or ask him/her to forgive you.

Forgive yourself before it continues to ruin you further?

On the next upcoming episode of the “Letty Love Show – Does Love Exist?”, Letty Love will be exploring “Forgiveness and Level”. This is the last episode of the year.

I invite you to share your thoughts and opinions on love and relationships on the Letty Love Show.

I love having callers come share their opinion on the matter.



Feel free to call at 212-757-2076 during the time of 12-12:30 pm Saturday.

You can also watch it on the web at http://www.mnn.org/viewers click to TW 56 (12 - 12:30 pm)

Black holes are Black holes

http://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2006/12/061207160504.htm


I used to be fascinated black holes and used the black hole question as a criteria for dates.

"what is the black hole?"

I must have heard the whole spectrum of responses - very fascinating.

Rocky - still one of the greatest films of all time

Dear Readers

Last night, I went to see Rocky and I LOVED IT!!!
http://movies.eclipsemagazine.com/movie_reviews/michelles_puch_drunk_love_for_rocky_balboa

Im glad I went to a theater full of loud mouths and quick to exicte audience because i sure was screaming along with them. I loved the story of an underdog. Go Rocky!!!!!

Music rocks! How "steps" assumes the role of surrogate son and the whole comeback. Fantastic!!!

Also today is christmas eve, there is only one thing I want for christmas and I dont think I will ever get it.....

Money cant buy it.....

Merry christmas.

xmas

Wishing you greatest holiday wishes and may all your wishes come true for new year and years to come! Thanks for reading my blog in this trying year.

Love,
Letty

Today's Topic is Pet Love - Call in!

Feel free to call at 212-757-2076 during that time. Sensible Selena will moderate this session with of course, Letty Love!

You can also watch it on the web at http://www.mnn.org/viewers
click to TW 56 (12 - 12:30 pm). It could appear as a tiny screen box but that's okay, you still can see and even call the Letty Love Show.

It is LIVE.

me on you tube

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Mr. Angel Love's Guidelines on Open Relationships

Dear Readers:

My good friend, Mr. Angel Love, has figured out the following guidelines. I personally am very old fashion and dont believe in being sexual with the person Im dating until it becomes serious but I just cant fathom how so many people out there can have sex with so many partners within the same week. I dont judge them, I just cant share my body because I get attached. (Catholic guilt)

Mr. Angel Love's guidelines
So I think being sexually open is fine as long as a couple of "rules"
are met.
1-Honesty- both should be aware that multiple partners are involved and
be accepting of it.
The reality is though that a guy will play and a woman will play along,
thinking that if she behaves she will eventually win him over...never
happens.

2-Saftey- Safe sex/ sanitary and hygenic practices are followed.

3-have f'n fun!

4 - Open is not tantamount to promiscuous, a mistake that many make.

5 - if it's something that is not in you, then never be pressured

Dont Forget to Watch the Letty Love Show Sats at noon - LIVE

Feel free to call at 212-757-2076 during that time.

You can also watch it on the web at http://www.mnn.org/viewers
click to TW 56 (12 - 12:30 pm). It could appear as a tiny screen box but that's okay, you still can see and even call the Letty Love Show.

It is LIVE.

Unsinkable Molly Brown

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Dear Readers:

Almost 10 years ago, around this christmas season, I saw Titanic - the movie. The character that I connected the most was "The Unsinkable Molly Brown." Why? She was down to earth, not blue blood, outspoken, kind hearted, made sure she still connected with the non-wealthy despite her wealth. I can see myself as Molly Brown. According to biography, though she was extremely wealthy and wore and only used the best, due to her humble beginnings and outspoken bubbling personality, she was never accepted in the crem of the creme.

Though there was alot of creative freedom in Titanic in regards to Ms. Molly Brown - I still feel there was a hint of realism. I have done similar acts of kindness to others while traveling like she did with Leonardo's character.

Recently, I have been told I dont fit in. I wont go into details. But despite me attending the toniest universities, achieving success in my own right (and more to come!), well cultured and world traveler, I still feel I am a Molly Brown. I dont mind. I am proud!

http://www.johnshepler.com/articles/mollybrown.html

http://www.lkwdpl.org/wihohio/brow-mol.htm

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Margaret_Brown

WIKI ROCKS!!

(Though her biography says she is a Cancer, I am sure that she had many planets in Gemini and in those times, her birthdate might even be off and could have been in June - both biographies have different birthdates!)

Lets See If This Works

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Is Santa Reading this?

Hi

I just downloaded The Chipmunk's Christmas Song. Its funny and I love it, especially the hoola hoop part.

Well, Christmas can be a sad time of year. The other day I just happened to be walking near a store and saw a carrot nose snowman toy. Reminded me as the toy I got last year in my nice stocking which I returned both to the giver some time in the summer. It was sad, I used to love this plush animal and sleep with him. Oh well.

Back to my wish list -
1. Love (is there a potion out there?)
2. Good friends (Hopefully 48 Laws of Powers Does not apply here)
3. Good Health (no E Coli)
4. Life
5. Closure.........(I will sooner become a millionaire than get this)
6. Success and abundance

And ultimately may you continue reading my blog (no hate mail please)

That's me in the Stick Figure World

Refraining from Using Certain Words

Dear Readers:

A male friend asking for advice referred my dating life "bad luck". I DONT LIKE THAT. I refuse to use these negatively charged words in my vocabulary. It inspires pity. A warrior princess dont like that! I sent him a piece of my mind about the power of words. I breathe and think only success and lots of love around me.

Which is worst - getting dumped or getting fired?

Hola

Both "releases" can elicit depression and emotional upset, though, one may be due to laborial performance and the other due to self intrinsic traits.

I strongly believe in periodical evaluation of the input and output of relationship including any pet peeves and any other behavioral ticks that may become major sisyphus stones, just like a report card for scholastic performance or annual review at a job helps determine performance at some level. (Though it may open some can of worms)

This way, it may prevent a sudden shock at the moment of "relational release" and opens up communication channels. Imagine that if one partner was upset about how her boyfriend never said thank you and breaks up with him but he may have been totally oblivious of this little behavioral tick and becomes upset at the end why he was never informed so he could correct it!

So what do you think?

Where is Elmo?

I spent this weekend in the pursuit of Elmo TMX. Its NOT for me! Its for my 4 year old little cousin who lives in sunny Puerto Rico. My cousin text messaged me the other day an urgent message: "All the elmos are sold out in PR until next year." So, since I love this little girl as my surrogate daughter, I want to make her happy. I saw an Elmo on ebay and overstock and they sold it for over $200 plus!

The numerous big toy stores dont even sell it online!

Where is Elmo?

Watch the Letty Love Show

I invite you to share your thoughts and opinions on love and relationships on the Letty Love Show.

I host my public access television show on Manhattan Neighborhood Network (MNN) called The Letty Love Show - Does Love Exist?. The show is broadcasted every Saturday at noon on channel 56 (Time Warner). I believe every one is an expert in love and every week it revolves around a subject of love. During the holiday season, I am focusing on holiday love. Last week was about the appropriate introduction title to refer to a significant other at a party.
Dec. 2nd - Holiday love - Thoughts on dumping a relationship during or after the holidays
Dec. 9th - Holiday love - Thoughts on meeting your love during the holidays and gifts to give
Dec. 16th - Holiday love - Open forum

I love having fellow members of the group come and talk about love/heartbreaks and answer some interesting phone calls from the viewers. Please let me know if you are interested in appearing and whats yoru take. Studio is very small

Feel free to call at 212-757-2076 during that time.

You can also watch it on the web at http://www.mnn.org/vi...
click to TW 56 (12 - 12:30 pm)

I
Hugs
Letizia

Out with the Old

This morning, I discarded my (almost) wedding dress. OUT! It was a nice beaded soft slip like dress that was good for a beach wedding. No need to have that shit around. Anniversary of almost beach elopment is on December 13th. How can someone "forget" divorce papers while all the procedures to get married there were set in place. What an Embarrassment. Painful.

Dec. 13th is the same day as my anniversary of working at this lovely non-profit.

I can be White too!

Hi
It has been some time I have not posted. I have had a death in the immediate family which has kept me a little under the spotlight.

Anyway, please say a prayer for me and my family.

Anyway 2, I was window shopping and saw the Lancome Blanc system. It supposed to whiten my skin! Changes the melanin in my skin. Darn, maybe I should have used that system when I was dating Mr. WASPie from Fairfield, CT. Maybe he was going to use another excuse to break up with me rather than saying, "you are too dark to fit in CT". Shoot, he said this right after hours we left from sunny Jamaica where we spent over a week frying our bodies with lots of relaxation under the sun. Of course Im gonna be dark!

But the prices were $$$ even on sale. What if I used it improperly and I started looking like a dalmatian!

I bet even if I used that system - he would have found another excuse like Im too young for him - he was planting the seed for that excuse too. He even said I was too proud on my education. Of course I am - after 10 years Im still paying the bill and I was blessed with fellowships and scholarships that helped me pay part of it. (he did not finish college but was a very successful white collar technology officer - very admirable).

Happy Gobble Day!

FYI : Medea was in Diary of a Mad Black Woman.
FYI 2: While in the plane trip back from Silicon Valley, I drove my ex nuts watching that film ad naseum (and making many Loud side comments and laughters) on the DVD player he bought "supposively" for his son during this trip while he laboriously tried to do some work on his laptop (while wearing his massive earphones)


THE 10 RULES FOR THE BUFFET LINE AT THANKSGIVING DINNER


1. If you are allergic to anything, get the ingredients before the
buffet table is set. Don't wait until you are in line and ask what
everything is on the damn table! You will get punched in the head for
that!

2. If you can't walk or are missing any limbs, sit your ass down
until
someone makes your plate for you. Dinner time is not the time for you
to
be independent. Nibble on them damn pecans and walnuts to hold you
over.

3. If you have kids under the age of twelve, keep them in the
basement
and bring their food down there. Tell them that they are not allowed
upstairs until it's time for Uncle Butchie to start telling family
stories about their mommas and papas. If they bring their ass upstairs
for any reason except for that they are bleeding to death, I will break

a foot off in their ass!

4. There is going to be one prayer for Thanksgiving dinner! JUST ONE!
We do not care what you are thankful for at the buffet table. Save that

talk for somebody who gives a damn. The time limit for the prayer is
one
minute. If you are still talking after that one minute is up, you will
feel something hard come across your lips and they will be swollen for
approximately 20 minutes.

5. Finish everything on your plate before you go up for seconds! If
you don't, you will be cursed out and asked to stay your greedy ass
home
next year!

6. BRING YOUR OWN TUPPERWARE!! Don't let me catch you fixing yourself
a plate in my good Tupperware knowing damn well that I will never see
it
again! If you touch my shizit, I will shoot you!! Hands down!

7. What you came with is what you should leave with!! Do not leave my
house with anything that doesn't belong to you. EVERYBODY WILL BE
SUBJECTED TO A BODY SEARCH COMING AND GOING OUT OF MY DOMAIN!!!

8. Do not leave your kids so you can go hopping from house to house.
This is not a DAYCARE CENTER ! There will be a kid-parent roll call
every ten minutes. Any parent that is not present at the time of roll
call, your child will be put outside until you come and get him or
her. After 24 hours, I will call DHS on your ignorant ass!!

9. BOOK YOUR HOTEL ROOM BEFORE YOU COME INTO TOWN!! There will be no
sleeping over at my house! You are to come and eat dinner and take your

ass home or to your hotel room. EVERYBODY GETS KICK THE HELL OUT AT
11pm. You will get a 15 minute warning bell ring.

10. Last but not least! ONE PLATE PER PERSON!! This is not a soup
kitchen. I am not trying to feed your family until Christmas dinner!
You
will be supervised when you fix your plate. Anything over the
appropriate amount will be charged to you before you leave. There will
be a cash register at the door. Thanks to Cousin Alfred and his greedy
ass family, we now have a credit card machine! So VISA and MASTERCARD
are now being accepted. NO FOOD STAMPS OR ACCESS CARDS YET! AND, NO
CHECKS
ACCEPTED! This ain't no ball field - checks bouncing all over the
place.

Blast from the Past

http://www.whoosh.org/road/xcnyc98/smcon.html#auction

Read entries #73-77

Fed Up

Hi Readers

I never write about celebrities, except about myself since Im a semi celebrity. Anyway, I knew from day 1 that Kevin Federline was the rebound for Britney Spears (post Justin Timberlake breakup). He was a reject to begin with. Some time ago, I heard news he went with his upstanding fellow friends to the "projects" and shoot blanks in the air. Hmm... what a great safe activity. At least, I shot paintball in the woods and we are wearing heavy amno.

Life

Hi

I know I have not posted for a few. But I have not forgotten.

Well I gotta start my day. I just have not been inspired to write - Im in a blah mode.

Hugs
L

Halloween Ideas

Dear Reader:

This would be a great Halloween party picture to have it hanging at a house party!

Im The Strongest Woman in The Gym

Hey All!

I love being the only woman lifting the same amount or more like the other boys at the gym. Who would suspect seeing a little Amazon (Im only 5'4") who usually wears revealing shorts and tops to lift so much weight and be able to do pull ups?

Anyway, most men usually dont even dare to talk to me at the gym. Dont know why? Who knows? Anyway, there is one kool dude who was a former football palyer (he still has the frame) who always happens to be using the bench next to me. He is the only one I can trust to spot me, the other guys, including the trainers, look like the wind is going to shake them down!

Dont know much about him but at least we are the only ones that do Arnold Presses in that yuppie gym. He gave me the title of "The Strongest Woman in the Gym". Okay, at least at NYSC. But I like it.

I think Letty has rebounded! Im back. I went into my supplement buying spree yesterday - Im back! I dont care if I dont fit in hoighty toighty Fairfield County, CT, Im unique, intelligent, exotic short Amazon! What you see is what you get. WYSIWYG

(Yes I am proud to be a NERD - but I dont think I fit in today's standard of being a nerd - I saw revenge of the nerds 19 times - one of the greatest movies of all times, along with Gladiator, Walk in the Clouds, Diary of a Mad Black Woman, Return to Eden, Little Miss Sunshine, Fast times in ridgemont high, Nobody Loves Me (german flick), A Face to Die For, and of course CHRISTMAS STORY! Ralphie, dont shoot your eye out!)

Remember the soldiers

Hi
You know I never speak/write anything political in my blog but I just received a call from a friend of mine to tell me that her brother, who is a Captain stationed in Iraq, was critically injured while taking a shower. She asked me to light a candle for him which I will gladly do to St. Jude. I only met her brother once, he was very quiet and reserved and I had dinner with him and his sister eons ago. It feels sad to think he is hooked up to many machines to relive him. I hope he comes out of this. But imagine all the soldiers and the families of the soldiers out there who get the phone call or like my friend, she was reading AOL news about Iraq and saw his bloodied picture on the site and listed him as a casualty. Imagine the agony, the pain. I wonder how many other families went through the same pain and agony. Imagine the children.

My prayers and thoughts to him and to all the soldiers out there.

I met Suge Knight last night

Hey Readers

Yes, you read right. I met Suge Knight, a cute tiny half Chihuaha/Pincher who was barking against a bull dog and any big dog that crossed its path. I spoke to the owner and he told me Suge was on Death Row - ready to be eliminated at a shelter - and he saved him. So Suge Knight from Death Row.

Who else were you thinking?

Oh by the waY, THE night before I was at Virgin flipping through a book by Tupac. I like Tupac. May he rest in peace. He is a Gemini! He mentioned Suge and Death Row in the book. I talk about Tupac in the present because he spirit still lives on!

Then the next day I met this little trouble maker but he was so adorable! Maybe it is true ladies like bad boys!

Me in cartoon

One of my blog gentleman reader was so gracious to create this image of me. Its so beautiful!

Dating a Recently Divorced/Separated Man

 Dear Readers:

 

A good male friend of mine just wrote me an email asking why women discriminate dating men who just got separated and or divorced and I wrote him the some of the following.

 

It is true that there is a stereotype about recently separated and divorced men. I was inundated with that information and warnings last year. But I shared a similar attitude like you – those are only stereotypes and who cares – what really matters is the relationship between two loving adults. RIGHT?

 

Well, unfortunately, I got not only burned but emotionally, physically, and mentally ravaged and violated to the highest degree dating someone who just recently was divorced and was going through those cycles. Since I loved him, I gladly tried to help him through the cycles and instead I developed hatred for the ex wife and he absorbed my positive energy. He was complimented for his new youthfulness (IT WAS MINE) and I was hurting with pain and undergoing through unnecessary painful medical examinations and anguish. Now he has moved on and I am slowly getting back to my old self – but more experienced due to pain and anguish.

 

Should I have listened to the warnings just like many women do when they learn that the guy was just recently RE-introduced to the dating market due to divorce? I had so many older people forewarning me to STAY AWAY but I did not.

 

I took a risk with my heart and I am paying a dear price for taking the risk and for having to reconstruct myself to a semblance of my old – pre GW self.

 

What if I never took the risk? Would I have learned how to love? Why live in fear?

 

Remember that others who might have taken the risk I took warned others after their downfall and this is how the stereotype was perpuated!

 

I want it to heal, accelerate it and I don’t think I will ever get the closure I need - remember if you do dump someone, please do it in person and give them time for them to speak out, support them by listening to them and hugging them and let go.

 

 Is the pain I underwent the reward of loving someone who was just wounded in his marriage and I took care her of him, loving him to the most I can, nursed him when he was sick, helped him with his Ebay sales, babysat his child, dogsit his little puppy, etc. I was just discarded so easily. I was what everyone else told me I was – THE REBOUND!.

 

So just remember my dear that people are just trying to protect themselves.

 

It be nice to get married and have kids but to be honest, I have given up on that concept for now. I think it is less painful to think it does not exist than to think it was removed from our feets all of a sudden.

 

Hugs

L

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Modern Day Slave

Dear Readers:

I apologize for not having written anything on my blog for days but this is the first chance I have to be in front of my laptop to write something, anything! I have been working 13-16 hour workdays for hardly any money for my lovely non profit (profit for everyone else). There was a big top honcho medical conference where I was working like a chicken without a head, I must have developed varicose veings just from all the running around preparing for this conference and at the event. Im POOPED.

Anyway, I believe we are modern day slaves to our jobs so we can pay our bills and the cyle continues.....

What do you think?

L

Little Old Ladies Agree with Me - LOVE DOES NOT EXIST

Yes, Sir.

I had 2 little old ladies whom I spent more time explaining to them how to do something and then they both announced to me, they have to leave within 30 minutes because of the plane crash, that they helped me very little with my duty. During this brief time, however, they agreed with me that Love is a fiction of our imagination perpertuated by media and business to generate billions in revenues.

New Word for the Day

Alpha Nerd = A dominant, usually successful Nerd invented by Gaby
Beta Dork = My friend Jane invented this Ms. Jane
Omega Geek = After the Omega Mus from Revenge of the Nerds

What am I? I think I am a nerd. I was proud to be one eons ago. But I dont know in today's standard.

GIA & Addicted to Love

Hello

i just saw the HBO film, GIA, featuring one of the sexiest female actress of modern time, Angelina Jolie. She is a Gemini just like me, she was born June 4th. She wanted her daughter to be born as a Gemini as well which it did happen. Go Geminis!

Some of the most interesting and perplexing individuals are Geminis: Marilyn Monroe (she was born a day before me but a few years before); Marquis DeSade (born on the same day as yours truly); Boy George, JFK, Prince, Guiliani, The Donald, to name a few. You get the idea.

Anyway, there was a scene where she is acting up in an emotional and physical display of being detached to her addiction to drugs. But this scene could happen to anyone who is addicted to something, like being addicted to a boyfriend or to another substance. She reminded me of another Gemini who was acting up like that after receiving an awful news on the phone. It was like seeing "This Gemini" on the screen as well.

So it made me think, can you be addicted to a relationship? I think so. When you dont get it anymore, body and mind goes through withdrawals. It is AWFUL! Just plain awful - like the relationship between this chemical or relationship or whatever is the addicting factor becomes an essential fix to one's existence.

My two cents

Double Edge Sword

That silly appearance is haunting me again - right for the Halloween Holidays!

I got recognized at least 6x in the past few days and the show aired weeks, even months ago!

I wonder if it is hurting my chances in love, life, and career development. If it is, I hope it ends soon!

One date told me he cant sustain a dating relationship with me because I am "semi celebrity" and now he is just a good friend.

Another one told me he is very conscious when people look at us because he think he is being judged for being with the girl who cant get dates. I CAN GET DATES. That silly title was changed on me. Oh well.. Now I got to stomach the consequences.

Ideal Baby

Hi
I wanted my baby to dress like this. Oh well.

Little Miss Sunshine

On Monday October 2nd, my “Respect My Authority” friend and I went to see Little Miss Sunshine. He made a great choice. This was definitely a movie to cheer me up – great friend who knew my state of mind that day. It is one of the funniest, best made, great character development movie I have seen this year.

If you have not seen the movie, I wont spoil your fun but I can tell you that it is about a pudgy girl - Olive, who resembles the younger me, excited about being a contestant in the Little Miss Sunshine Finals in California. As a former pageant contestant at many pageants – including teenage pageants, bikini, resort, and muscle pageants – I felt so connected with mostly the end part of the movie. The backstage scene comprising of the uptightness and the behind the scenes beautification of contestants was truthful yet funny sight for an outsider. The airbrush tanning – remind me of the times when my great friends hastily poured competition paint on me on top of my 2 month long tanning bed experience.

There was a “talent aspect” of the competition which reminded me of the “posing routine” in bodybuilding. Also, the scene where her dad and brother are desperately trying to prevent her to perform her “talent” was exactly what Trini Love and Laquita did for me at a Halloween expo in the Caribbean which ultimately I did not compete in at last minute – the routines that others put her demonstrated months even years of preparation – not over the plane trip with my two consultants – Trini Love and Laquita.

Well, I guess Im Miss Sunshine myself in other sense. I have forgiven my ex a few days ago – though he never gave me face to face closure – and Im ready to move on emotionally. If he ever gives me closure – great – but I wont trust his words that he will and then cancels or no show and shatter my heart. I wont let him shatter it anymore. No more power for him!!! Its my power! Im happy with myself and cant beat myself for not making this relationship which I thought was THE ONE work. Oh well, We live and learn. Don’t we all?

I thought by October 2-3rd, I would be celebrating either a birth of a child within a marriage. It sure did not happen. Not time yet. I imagined that this Halloween I can dress my kid in various Halloween fuzzy outfits – maybe a little frog or a bumble bee. Who knows? This happens when a guy makes his girl look over wedding rings over the net and chapels and had a blessed commitment ceremony with Claddagh ring exchange and everything.

Does anyone read this?

Diary of a Mad Black Woman

Hi
I love this movie. My ex did not. Oh well. But I did. Anyway, this is Medea and she rocks!
This picture is a scene where her poor grand daughter was thrown out in a horrible fashion from her home of 18 years.

Every Man Who Wants To Date Me (Serious Rlp only) Should Know

 What can you bring to the table?


In a brief conversation, a man asked a woman he was pursuing the question
"What kind of man are you looking for?" She sat quietly for a moment before
looking him in the eye and asking  "Do you really want to know?"
Reluctantly, he said "Yes". She began to expound... "As a woman in this day
and age, I am in a position to ask a man what he can do for me that I can't
do for myself. I pay my own bills. I take care of my household without the
help of any man...or woman for that matter. I am in the position to ask,
"What can you bring to the table?" The man looked at her. Clearly he thought
that she was referring to money. She quickly corrected his thought and
stated, "I am not referring to money".


I need something more. I need a man who is striving for perfection in every
aspect of life. He sat back in his chair, folded his arms, and asked her to
explain. She said "I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection
mentally because I need conversation and mental stimulation. I don't need a
simple-minded man. I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection
spiritually because I don't need to be unequally yoked.... believers mixed
with unbelievers is a recipe for disaster. And even if he is a believer; he
needs to believe as I do. I need a man who is striving for perfection
financially because I don't need a financial burden.

I am looking for someone who is sensitive enough to keep me grounded when I
do go through changes. I don't need a man who is going to purposely bring me
grief. I am looking for someone who I can respect. In order to be
submissive, I must respect him and he must respect me. I cannot be
submissive to a man who isn't taking care of his business or who is "messy"
in his personal affairs. I have no problem being submissive....but he has to
be worthy. God made woman to be a help mate for man, I can't help a man if
he can't help himself. If he can't help himself then he definitely can't
help me. When she finished her spiel, she looked at him. He sat there with a
puzzled look on his face. He said, "You are asking a lot". She replied, "I'm
worth a lot"  

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Ideal Jeff Koon's Work of Arts

As I was researching for pictures on love so I can post it up, I found Jeff Koon's gallery. I never really heard of him, though, after seeing his work, I would love to own them later on in the future. He is the most $$$ living artist so that is why I got to wait until I make boohoo money and afford his work.

Anyway, this is the painting I want in my dream house's master bedroom.
This is the least risque among the "Made in Heaven" works. Check out: Jeff in the Position of Adam, 1990
I like the name Jeff or Geoff and I like Cicciolina too. Reminds me a Godiva without the chocolate. I think I dated a few Jeff's/Geoff.

http://www.xs4all.nl/~exadega/koons/madeinheaven.html

I also like this doggie to put outside my dream house.

Chastity Rocks

Hi
Today, September 18th - I have declared chastity on myself again. No sex til God knows when.

Dont listen to Popeye - Spinach is BAD for you!

http://www.nytimes.com/2006/09/15/us/15spinach.html?ex=1158465600&en=5c9b7e3361bc921b&ei=5087

Years of me eatting spinach so I can lean out for my bodybuilding shows made me despise it but now there is an official reason, certain pre-package Spinach contains E.Coli. Ohhhhhhhhh it might cause you to do the "Diarhea Cha Cha Dance" seen in Beavis and Butt head.

Ideal Doggie

Hi
As I was looking for Letty Love images on google, I found this one. This canine super hero reminds me so much of Sam, my ex's beloved dog. I missed that dog so much I CRIED my eyes out thinking of him. Anyway, I thought this was a nice reminder of that schnuzle (sic - poodle and schnouzer) and when I get my own dog, I will find that same type!

White House Stand on Xena's Planet Status

 http://www.whitehouse.org/news/2006/083106.asp

 

But I hate to regret that Xena, the planet, is officially called Eris, after the goddess of discord.

 

Go XENA!!!!

 

 

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Sept 11

Hi

The only day I remember exactly how I was dressed was for Sept. 11. It started just like one of those classic tragedies, where the beginning is very idyllic and it ends with bloodshed and mayhem. I remember it was a very warm Tuesday morning and I was wearing black slacks and a Beige Blazer I bought from a now defunct store - Cadanian. Mom asked me what was I doing today and I said, I was going to Kung Fu and did my little Kung Fu fighting song dance that was popular in the 80's.

Anyway, when I was in my office I saw some commotion going on at my boss' office. I asked and I was told that the tower was burning. I went and saw and immediately prayed for the people there and for the firefighters.

Then an hour and a half later....... no need to say more.....

After I left work, I saw some Asian tourists taking pictures on 5th avenue with Empire State in the back ground, I work a block away, and smilling. I know what they were thinking - it might not be there later on so they take pictures now as momentos.

I walked home, went to church to pray for the souls lost and for their loved ones and only saw 4 people in church at that moment, about 11:15 am or so, then I got McD food for my ladies at home, they were not gonna cook on that day, and went to my home. I saw this chick who lived in my building totally in distress - why? she had 2 big dogs and was unable to walk them because too many people in the street - she had NO IDEA of what happened! She did not turn on her tv nor radio.

Then I had to call my friend Joanna and I got to call her today - Its her Birthday. 9/11.

:-(

The waters of Lethe/Being Infamous

 

The waters of Lethe

 

Lethe is the mythic waters of forgetfulness. According to the legend, once you bathe in it, you will forget your past existence. This past weekend, I escaped to someplace sunny and warm and a few hours before I boarded the plane back to dreaded NYC yesterday, I had the pleasure to feel the effect of Lethe on me as I try to forget the pains of my heart break. I met him at a beach and I leave him on the beach. October 2-3 will be very hard for me so if you read this, I would appreciate if you send me an email to cheer me up. J

 

 

Being Recognized in the Escape

Well it seems that this “documentary” I filmed last year was not aired in Vh1 but in MTV in the side of the world I was at this past weekend. Mind you, it was aired almost 6 months ago but I was still recognized in many places, even by the street hanging out guy who said “I saw you on TV” and some chicks at the airport – both NY and foreign. It is a chapter I also want Lethe to make me forget. I was very optimistic that it would open doors for me – making my public access tv show syndicated - and did not realized that popularity may not all be positive and syndication may not occur at all – especially since the promise of me plugging the show was not on writing – only verbal- and it sure was not added on the final product.

 

Instead I receive sleazy agents calling me and trying to lure me with hopes of fame which I am not interested at all at this point of my life. I prefer to be at a nice private island with no communication what so ever but at least have someone to talk to near me. :-) 

 

These were two very painful lessons of my life that I experienced this year. Made me evolve more realistically as a person but made me realize life is not as rosy as I hoped it was. I am apprehensive if I will experience a third heart breaking experience before the end of the year.  Rule 40 - Beware of the a free lunch – there is nothing free or easy in this life.

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When a relationship goes downhil, dont try to stop it

Hey

I believe in the Sisyphus Stone Theory - try to crush the pebbles (any little pet peeves, idiosyncrities, etc) before it becomes converts to such a huge stone that it will be unbearably impossible to prevent its destruction.

Poor Neptune is Next

What are these scientists doing to our planetary educational system? I
just read a report that Neptune will be demoted as well. What the heck.
Very soon, we might only have a handful of planets or maybe only 3 or
maybe 1 and then revert to the Earth Centric mentality where poor
Copernius was persecuted for his theory.
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Pluto is still a planet in my eyes

Ladies and Gentlemen

Or who ever is reading this post

I still believe that Pluto is a planet. Its out there and it is big. Ok, not enough reason to make it a planet but I bet you that in the end of year orbituaries, Pluto will get its due respect.

Wait a minute, Xena or 2003 UB3013 is considered a dwarf planet. hehe

Go Xena!!!! Battle cry!!!!!!!!

Xena is a Planet with Gabrielle as a moon!

http://www.cbc.ca/story/science/national/2005/10/02/gabrielle_satellite_20051002.html

Evicted

Yesterday I got evicted from my very spacious and private office to a much smaller office next to everyone and right in front of the door so the new subtenants can move in next week. Anyway, my computer was damaged in the moving process and the computer doctor said my hard drive was completely destroyed.

First thing I thought – GOODIE, I WONT HAVE ANY PICTURES OF MY EX IN MY WORK COMPUTER ANYMORE. God is good with me. J

The teenager who helped me moved my office helped stomped a CD replete with my vacation pictures that had lots of pictures of my ex. Cool Teen stomped it a few times! He was wearing his steel tip boots so it really destroyed that CD. Cool Teen helped me transfer the items that my ex recently sent me full of lingerie and the lingerie I gave him that still had tags on them and all of it untouched! That box was over 10 lbs full of stuff. He sure did not want any reminders of me for his new girl to see. Imagine Frederick of Hollywood’s line of sexy black wear – all brand new – at least hundreds worth plus untouched Kama Sutra oils that I bought and countless stuff – all brand new. I wrote him an email saying I prefer to have his little dog tear this shit up. I wont wear this for anyone. I wont sell it either – might bring bad karma to the wearer – I am not that mean.

All my other breakups have been very amicable and we are still friends in most cases.

This is my first breakup EVER in my life that was extremely painful. I would have preferred an entire dental root canals with no anesthesia whatsoever – that would have been less pain. The other relationships – come and go. That is life, but once the word Love is thrown in the mix – it changes the complexity of the mixture. Makes it more viscous and harder to remove – at least for the cleanup crew.

He made me wait 2 hours in the total deluge last week and never showed up or had the courtesy to call. He was supposed to give me my stuff and the Claddagh ring I gave him during our commitment ceremony. Since he used to be so reliable, I thought he was stuck in traffic. The sky was crying as much as I was.

So it is time for me to move on and get over this painful chapter of my life. Maybe I learned an important lesson – DON’T LOVE.

Titles for Exes

Hi

In my mental rolodex, I have a one liner subject description for my exes. I bet you also have such system or similar descriptive manner. Anyway, for example I have the following:
1. ????

2. Sexual Therapist - cool friend and my respect

3. Young Future CTO - My respect for him

4. Muscle Lover Extremely Stylish Pompous Power Attorney - dump me swift and simple. "I still masturbate to your pictures
but there is no need to proceed with our relationship" Ouch - but my respect.

5. Muscle Lover Italian Ruffian Gentleman - My respect for him.

6. Silent Sal - wait staff spoke more than this dude. His future son is Cartman. hehe. Respect!

7. Catholic Dancer - cool friend

Well back to dumping, I think if you gonna dump, let say me, I recommend the following format:
1. Make it fast and simple. DONT PROLONG IT by days or months.
2. FACE TO FACE - Dont be a coward - nothing beats face to face. it sure hurts but it accelerates closure
3. GIVE CLOSURE
4. Bring stuff right away
5. Good bye Hug - Is this too much to ask? After months or years of bonding, this is a good way to say good bye.

What do you think? #3-5 broke up with me face to face and I respect them for this. Gave me closure and we moved on. #2 remained just good friends. #6 had no heartbeat since day 1 but I wanted to see how long this farce lasted. No hard feelings for any of these men #2-7. In some cases friendship was always there and it made it possible to remain friends in a few occasion.

Observing "Courtship"

I went to a NYFD circle line cruise fundraiser. Very interesting
observing "courtship" behavior. Loved it. Me and Tracy took our chairs
and positioned them right near the entrance and saw how ladies wore
tight cleavage revealing sexy clothes while men wore sandals and baggy
shorts. Hmm
I was wearing my business skirt and turtle neck muscle shirt and then
I dressed down to my shorts that I was wearing underneath. I had to make myself comfortable too, just like the men!

i even brought my ipod and a book. You would have loved it - 8 women
for each man! We just observed! Unlimited booze. Friendlier men at the end of the night.

They might not even remember our names. That is cool. I dont drink so all I drank were diet cokes and chill!

Dumping

I have come to this conclusion about dumping:

 

Don't cling, dont think it will change, if you gonna dump, dump NOW.

 

Also, ALWAYS be mentally prepared that the relationship will be GONE in a moment so

DONT LOVE anyone. It is just not worth the pain.

 

We were born alone (unless you were part of a multiple birth) and we shall love alone and die alone!

Dating Older Men? Younger Men?

If dating an older man (greater than 10 years your senior):
He is more experienced in hurting hearts and might easily hurt yours too

If dating a younger man (greater than 10 years your junior):
Deal with a baby, Be ready to clean the shit leftover!

Healing and Love

Greetings

I dont even know if anyone actually reads my blog. But I want to warn the men out there to becareful wo they say "I LOVE YOU". These are powerful words and if they dont mean it, DONT SAY IT! Men who say this frivolously should be knocked out!

"vacation love syndrome"

Departure Bus

 

On my way to the gym yesterday, I saw a teary eye BBW hugging a thinner West Coast looking guy and she was tearing her eyes out while the Super Shuttle Guy was waiting for him to enter the van and most likely head to the airport.

 

I was her almost a year ago as well as almost 2 years ago and maybe 3 years ago as well.

 

I call this the "vacation love syndrome"

 

You might never see him or her again but it sure was a nice person to share pleasant experience with.

 

The one last year, I thought he was the TRUE LOVE. Maybe there are certain pheromones or neurotransmitters emitted which made me believe I am in love. Clouded my true perspective on love.

 

But what is love? Where is it? Can you tell me?

Ironic

Why is it the man I would love to call me has not contacted me yet I receive many text messages from other admirers?

I still get recognized for that show. I have changed a certain aspects of my looks and I STILL get recognized. That Letty who thought she was interviewing for a documentary does not exist. I regret EVER doing it. It tells you ALOT that I became so upset upon seeing the preview in January that I was NOT invited to the premier party! I wish I never did it but oh well.

Lyrics from Alanis Morisette

These Words Reflect My Heart and Heart of Million of Broken Heart Ladies

You Oughta Know

I want you to know that I'm happy for you
I wish nothing but the best for you both
An older version of me
Is she perverted like me
Would she go down on your in a theatre
Does she speak eloquently
And would she have your baby
I'm sure she'd make a really excellent mother

'Cause the love that you gave that we made
Wasn't able to make it enough for you to be open wide, no
And every time you speak her name
Does she know how you told me you'd hold me
Until you died, 'til you died
But you're still alive

And I'm here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It's not fair to deny me
Of the cross I bear that you gave to me
You, you, you oughta know

You seem very well, things look peaceful
I'm not quite as well, I thought you should know
Did you forget about me Mr. Duplicity
I hate to bug you in the middle of dinner
It was a slap in the face how quickly I was replaced
Are you thinking of me when you fuck her

'Cause the love that you gave that we made
Wasn't able to make it enough for you to be open wide, no
And every time you speak her name
Does she know how you told me you'd hold me
Until you died, 'til you died
But you're sill alive

And I'm here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It's not fair to deny me
Of the cross I bear that you gave to me
You, you, you oughta know

'Cause the joke that you laid in the bed that was me
And I'm not gonna fade
As soon as you close your eyes and you know it
And every time I scratch my nails down someone else's back
I hope you feel it...well can you feel it

And I'm here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It's not fair to deny me
Of the cross I bear that you gave to me
You, you, you oughta know

Thoughts on Religion

Hi

With the DaVinci Code bringing in so much controversy, I decided to inform you all of my 2 cents on religion.

 

In any religion you will encounter human faults since religion itself is an institutionalized human made code of social behavior. What matters is the spiritual relationship with the creator/God and the world. I believe as long one does not harm any one (including animals) in the moral, ethical, or legal 
realms then tat is what really matters.

 

L

Strong Shall Sruvive

Hey

 

Last night, I am proud to say I am a bona fide strong woman. Why?

I was able to complete 45 partial reps on the flat bench press with a 45 lb plate on each side plus 10 lbs. It totals 55 lb on each side plus 45 lb for the Olympic bar. Total weight - 155 lb! I benched more than my weight! 45 reps!!!!

 

:-)

(no subject)

Hi

Someone wrote in a message board about the playboy pendant I was wearing while I was talking about chastity. Guess what? It was a loaner! I had to give it back to the stylist. I also had to give back the most expensive clothes. Oh well. At least I modeled it. :-)

The show was re-aired yesterday. I hope for the last time. People think I need medication. The Letty you see on the show (during the before transformation) does not fully exist! Editing does that. The real smart and savvy professional is hiding until the end. But oh well. If Madonna can make any bad publicity into gold, maybe I have a chance too and I am not near Madonna status (she lived in my old apartment in the east village back 20 plus years ago). And The show did show the smart and savvy me at the end. :-D

It was an interesting experience. Nevertheless, I proved myself that I can reach a goal. But then again, I have reached many goals. I have a list of over 1,000 items and I have done at least half but the list constantly grows. One of the items on the list was to become a reality tv show star. This show helped me. Thanks CGAD/KSK. I did it! Now, next item!

I regret being on the show at all. Why did I do this? Being on a reality show was one of the items on my check list. 200 hours of footage reduced to 20 minutes of humiliation.

I only have a few days left for the national premier. I will be in need of a hug. "Why did I do this?"

Oh dear, I am already televised on national TV promos. I should be indicted to the "National Nerd Hall of Fame". Though I loved Revenge of the Nerds!

When I signed the contract over a year ago, the show was called, "Crushed Out" and not "Can't Get A Date". The taping was done over a year ago.

I have met many men in various date encounters (at least 300 were cyber based) since 1992 and surely, I can get dates! It is just retaining them and I purposively used to scare and intimidate men by various tactics such as:
1. Dressing as casual as possible - flats and sneakers
2. Not Dollying myself up - not even combing my hair at times.
3. Stating I believed in sexual chastity!
4. Being EXTREMELY choosy!
5. Being difficult to give my heart to anyone.


Viewers, the person you are seeing is not the social deviant the show potrays me as. Imagine, you only have a few minutes with each person on a speed date, so you think of formula questions to ask each person. It is not natural. But what is done is done. No, I did not get paid alot for this show!