Little Miss Sunshine

On Monday October 2nd, my “Respect My Authority” friend and I went to see Little Miss Sunshine. He made a great choice. This was definitely a movie to cheer me up – great friend who knew my state of mind that day. It is one of the funniest, best made, great character development movie I have seen this year.

If you have not seen the movie, I wont spoil your fun but I can tell you that it is about a pudgy girl - Olive, who resembles the younger me, excited about being a contestant in the Little Miss Sunshine Finals in California. As a former pageant contestant at many pageants – including teenage pageants, bikini, resort, and muscle pageants – I felt so connected with mostly the end part of the movie. The backstage scene comprising of the uptightness and the behind the scenes beautification of contestants was truthful yet funny sight for an outsider. The airbrush tanning – remind me of the times when my great friends hastily poured competition paint on me on top of my 2 month long tanning bed experience.

There was a “talent aspect” of the competition which reminded me of the “posing routine” in bodybuilding. Also, the scene where her dad and brother are desperately trying to prevent her to perform her “talent” was exactly what Trini Love and Laquita did for me at a Halloween expo in the Caribbean which ultimately I did not compete in at last minute – the routines that others put her demonstrated months even years of preparation – not over the plane trip with my two consultants – Trini Love and Laquita.

Well, I guess Im Miss Sunshine myself in other sense. I have forgiven my ex a few days ago – though he never gave me face to face closure – and Im ready to move on emotionally. If he ever gives me closure – great – but I wont trust his words that he will and then cancels or no show and shatter my heart. I wont let him shatter it anymore. No more power for him!!! Its my power! Im happy with myself and cant beat myself for not making this relationship which I thought was THE ONE work. Oh well, We live and learn. Don’t we all?

I thought by October 2-3rd, I would be celebrating either a birth of a child within a marriage. It sure did not happen. Not time yet. I imagined that this Halloween I can dress my kid in various Halloween fuzzy outfits – maybe a little frog or a bumble bee. Who knows? This happens when a guy makes his girl look over wedding rings over the net and chapels and had a blessed commitment ceremony with Claddagh ring exchange and everything.

Does anyone read this?