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Evicted

Yesterday I got evicted from my very spacious and private office to a much smaller office next to everyone and right in front of the door so the new subtenants can move in next week. Anyway, my computer was damaged in the moving process and the computer doctor said my hard drive was completely destroyed.

First thing I thought – GOODIE, I WONT HAVE ANY PICTURES OF MY EX IN MY WORK COMPUTER ANYMORE. God is good with me. J

The teenager who helped me moved my office helped stomped a CD replete with my vacation pictures that had lots of pictures of my ex. Cool Teen stomped it a few times! He was wearing his steel tip boots so it really destroyed that CD. Cool Teen helped me transfer the items that my ex recently sent me full of lingerie and the lingerie I gave him that still had tags on them and all of it untouched! That box was over 10 lbs full of stuff. He sure did not want any reminders of me for his new girl to see. Imagine Frederick of Hollywood’s line of sexy black wear – all brand new – at least hundreds worth plus untouched Kama Sutra oils that I bought and countless stuff – all brand new. I wrote him an email saying I prefer to have his little dog tear this shit up. I wont wear this for anyone. I wont sell it either – might bring bad karma to the wearer – I am not that mean.

All my other breakups have been very amicable and we are still friends in most cases.

This is my first breakup EVER in my life that was extremely painful. I would have preferred an entire dental root canals with no anesthesia whatsoever – that would have been less pain. The other relationships – come and go. That is life, but once the word Love is thrown in the mix – it changes the complexity of the mixture. Makes it more viscous and harder to remove – at least for the cleanup crew.

He made me wait 2 hours in the total deluge last week and never showed up or had the courtesy to call. He was supposed to give me my stuff and the Claddagh ring I gave him during our commitment ceremony. Since he used to be so reliable, I thought he was stuck in traffic. The sky was crying as much as I was.

So it is time for me to move on and get over this painful chapter of my life. Maybe I learned an important lesson – DON’T LOVE.

Titles for Exes

Hi

In my mental rolodex, I have a one liner subject description for my exes. I bet you also have such system or similar descriptive manner. Anyway, for example I have the following:
1. ????

2. Sexual Therapist - cool friend and my respect

3. Young Future CTO - My respect for him

4. Muscle Lover Extremely Stylish Pompous Power Attorney - dump me swift and simple. "I still masturbate to your pictures
but there is no need to proceed with our relationship" Ouch - but my respect.

5. Muscle Lover Italian Ruffian Gentleman - My respect for him.

6. Silent Sal - wait staff spoke more than this dude. His future son is Cartman. hehe. Respect!

7. Catholic Dancer - cool friend

Well back to dumping, I think if you gonna dump, let say me, I recommend the following format:
1. Make it fast and simple. DONT PROLONG IT by days or months.
2. FACE TO FACE - Dont be a coward - nothing beats face to face. it sure hurts but it accelerates closure
3. GIVE CLOSURE
4. Bring stuff right away
5. Good bye Hug - Is this too much to ask? After months or years of bonding, this is a good way to say good bye.

What do you think? #3-5 broke up with me face to face and I respect them for this. Gave me closure and we moved on. #2 remained just good friends. #6 had no heartbeat since day 1 but I wanted to see how long this farce lasted. No hard feelings for any of these men #2-7. In some cases friendship was always there and it made it possible to remain friends in a few occasion.

Observing "Courtship"

I went to a NYFD circle line cruise fundraiser. Very interesting
observing "courtship" behavior. Loved it. Me and Tracy took our chairs
and positioned them right near the entrance and saw how ladies wore
tight cleavage revealing sexy clothes while men wore sandals and baggy
shorts. Hmm
I was wearing my business skirt and turtle neck muscle shirt and then
I dressed down to my shorts that I was wearing underneath. I had to make myself comfortable too, just like the men!

i even brought my ipod and a book. You would have loved it - 8 women
for each man! We just observed! Unlimited booze. Friendlier men at the end of the night.

They might not even remember our names. That is cool. I dont drink so all I drank were diet cokes and chill!

Dumping

I have come to this conclusion about dumping:

 

Don't cling, dont think it will change, if you gonna dump, dump NOW.

 

Also, ALWAYS be mentally prepared that the relationship will be GONE in a moment so

DONT LOVE anyone. It is just not worth the pain.

 

We were born alone (unless you were part of a multiple birth) and we shall love alone and die alone!